We met on a dating site, and he was very intelligent and straight to the point, it took four weeks of chating to meet, till we felt it’s the good time, we went out, and he invited me over his house to meet him, which showed me the trust he had for me to take me to his house, I could thought it’s a friend's house, but I met his cousin and his older sister, and it was a very respectful move from him. We had wonderful night, dinner, conversations, online and connected me with his close friends in abroad through skype, it felt like a fast relationship, but that didn’t stop us from being friends and close at that night; a night which needed up beautifully and happy.
After
one date and one week, things changed, no much passion anymore, I felt
something changed about him!
I
had a gay friend who was visiting Hargeisa for a couple of days, we decided to
go to Berbera and I though it will be nice idea to bring a long my close new
gay friend to have a group fun on road to Berbera; He excused, said he is busy.
But after that the excuses kept going on and on, switched off phone, not calling
back, and then making up an excuse to dumb me, saying I outed him, making me
feel guilty about something I haven't done. I told him its better to be clear
about changing his my mind about me and say
“hey I don’t want to do this anymore” clearly. But a whole big fat lie act
to get rid of me is so ugly and unacceptable.
After
3 weeks of breaking up, called me asking for a favor, I did it, and I asked to
meet him anytime he is free, said OK.
But
again the excuses kept going on.
Couple of days ago, he called me after I send him a message explaining how its nice
and important to have close friend to talk to in this city, and how much I
trust him.
Then
gave me this weird reasoning saying he doesn’t think we have the same
mentality, and pause/silence! I tried to convince him about the whole
conversations we had and how it was just ideas worth to be shared and discussed
about. But the phone call went to a weird direction were both of us were silent
some seconds for multiple times. And then ended up saying he can be in contact
with me but we cant meet anymore! that’s it. I had to call it out.
I
really like this guy so much, he's so innocent and scared to express him self to
anyone close to him, as he shared with me about the lack of confident he got
with men before, but felt good with me, and I really liked that.
No
clear reason so far about keeping me away from him, and not being honest with
me.
I tried as much as I
could to make him open up with me, but no reason for this kind of behavior with
anyone when you’re so open with them. Its not good for my dignity anymore.